This week, we have been working on really getting outside of our comfort zone and playing with taking "selfies". I can tell you, the idea of photographing myself brings up so many uncomfortable feelings. Feelings I am guessing that go back all the way to my childhood. It causes me to revisit the name of this blog - sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me...
It's a lie. I guess it was some witty saying created to make a person not feel hurt by hurtful words. I can tell you that I hold very few memories from my very early years, but most of the times when hurtful words were directed at me, I remember...oh, how I remember! I guess you could say I am thin-skinned, that I tend to take everything to heart...but that is how I try to lead - with my heart. But as we grow, we learn to tuck the hurt deep inside and hope it doesn't resurface - like this project that involves photographing yourself.
I know I am a good person, kind-hearted, hard-working, with a genuine concern for my fellow man and mankind, I am smart and have a great sense of humor, I am courageous and faithful, and I am a pretty darn good mother and grandmother. But this self photography thing has thrown me for a loop. So as a part of my new year of adventures, I will venture into finally erasing those painful words that lie deep within me and just enjoy! I will continue to take photos of myself until there are no more voices in my head trying to tear me down.
Here is my first attempt at a "selfie"...I call it "baby steps"...
Mom,
ReplyDeleteAs someone who had to re-examine my childhood years, I can tell you that it is hard, but once you accept it, you will feel so free! You are the best mom in the whole wide world! I am lucky that I was raised by you and Gramma, because it has made me into the woman I am today. I love you more than I can ever put into words. xoxo